Una vez en la vida.

¿Cuántas posibilidades hay de que esto suceda? Que te encuentre, que me encuentres, tras tantos años separados, tantos momentos anhelando un solo segundo a tu lado. Que me sea concedido más que eso es como el cielo cayendo a la tierra, la eternidad envolviendome en un manto cálido y sin temor.

Tú creíste que huiría, que la revelación escondida en tus palabras casi inocentes me harían esconderme, con miedo a volver a salir, pero ¿cómo huir de mi propia sombra? No hay día que no te haya llorado, noche que no te haya soñado, y en medio, la fría certeza de que esta oportunidad nunca me sería concedida.

Y me miras, agarrando mi mano como aterrorizado de dejarme marchar...Y en ese momento se que es realidad, que estás aquí junto a mí, algo que creí nunca sucedería desde aquel día que te perdí, lluviosa noche de noviembre.

Y los daños colaterales...sabes que en realidad no me importan.

Caught a lite sneeze

"Boys like to think they're the flu, but sometimes all they are is a lite sneeze."

                                                                   Tori Amos

Creí que eras una fiebre fatal, que me consumirías por completo. En aquel entonces yo era pequeña, inocente. Me abrasabas por el cuerpo y el alma. Te creí gripe.

Pero el tiempo pasa, y el invierno es frío, no sobrevivieron los árboles, ¿cómo iba a sobrevivir tu fría llama? Y aun así seguí en cama. Como el niño que no quiere ir al colegio, me negaba a ver que ya no me quemaba. Hasta aquel día.

Pasaste de llama a lluvia, todo frío, todo hielo, granizo golpeando mi maltrecha piel. Tiritando bajo el gélido manto invernal, se me escapó un estornudo. Rápido, fugaz, intenso. Futil. Nada eres si en nada quedas, y a mi ya ni recuerdos me puedes arrancar. Nada salvo un cuerpo desnudo, y un susurro silencioso en el vacío.

Y como dijo Neruda, 'de otro. Será de otro. Como antes de mis besos.' Solo que aquellos besos que nunca me diste son aquellos que me podrían haber mantenido a tu lado.

Pero nunca fuiste más que un estornudo.

Home?

Takes too long, so long it won't let me breathe. The moment I can leave seems so far, and there's so little air in here. Got too many tears, got too many troubles. Who in the world do you think you are, making me hurt, ignoring my own blood, breaking my rules?

Who do you think you are? Something gave you the idea that your power is endless, that you can have a say in every tiny thing I do. But you don't, you obnoxious lousy human. You're nothing but the same, flesh and bones, skin loose and muscles ripping underneath with rage, just as me, just as the rest of us.

He could be dead for all I know, yet you don't care. Just a knock, and life would be easier, just a knock. Too much? Not enough. And you want me to respect you? You're nothing but scum, and you want respect?

Just die, will you?

Head over heels

In the screenlight, hands intertwined. My lips are purple and I don't know why. You make a move, I let you try. Have never felt this way, so set alight. With your sighs collapsing on my overheated skin, and hope in your darkened eyes that stare into mine, my angel, I feel like I am falling into the night, with no fears to make me hide.

It's the sound of your laughter, and your face when you're surprised. It's the way you growl at me in the dark. In all the moments we've shared I've been left wanting more, and I can't make it stop, nor do I want.

And then you're suddenly there, lights on and looking into my soul, asking me if I would be yours. A smile blooms in my face, I can't contain the bliss in me. Exploding, I say yours to take. Because I am head over heels in love (de cabeza y sin frenos, corazón).

It all started...

It all started in the swing set when we were rocking, the three of us, you, me, and the one in between. You were smiling that smirk that makes me think your mind is a scary, scary place. Then you held my hand, the world stopped spinning, and suddenly the stars were brighter. And there in the darkness, when they all went to sleep, you stole my breath away.

Awkward day with awkward glances and my sunkissed skin burning brightly. You touch me and I feel like flying. Everybody knows, and it's all kisses and kittens and rainbows in lalaland. And then you sing to me, begging please don't go, and I'm melting to the ground, done for.


But then I have to part. Have never felt such sweet sorrow. You tell me don't go, I say I'll be back.

You say you'll wait for me.